I had a secret. A secret that I would keep for 3 years. This is my eating disorder journey.
TRIGGER WARNING This article or section, or pages it links to, contains information about SELF-HARM and SUICIDAL THOUGHTS/ ATTEMPTS which may be triggering to those who struggle with suicidal ideation, cutting and other forms of self-harm. If you follow me on Instagram, some of this will sound familiar. A few mornings ago, I had an unfortunately realistic dream that… Continue reading When it Rains, It Pours
I see the light that I'm chasing A memory, but it's fading When it's gone I'll be waiting Knowing it's too late There's no sugarcoating it: recovery is hell. It's not easy to make a complete lifestyle change and fight against actual chemical imbalances in your brain every second of every day. Even living in a… Continue reading How 1 Band Helped Form My Recovery
This weekend I wrote a letter of complaint to the patient relations at my hospital. Being an advocate on my blog and Instagram can only get you so far. I took the courageous action to share my story with the people who will hopefully really help me make a difference. And it's only right that… Continue reading Dear Patient Relations – An Open Letter
Not a day goes by where I don't dread the night. It's difficult to find the light when even the room around me is dark. I put off sleeping as long as possible, sometimes even for days a time. I have an extreme dislike for almost everything associated with bedtime. I really struggle with taking… Continue reading Goodnight Brain, Hello Pain
5/23/17... a year ago today I arrived home after a 2-month residential stay at Rogers Memorial Hospital. It may have only been 2 months, but there was a long road that led me there, and a lifetime of memories to treasure afterward. My first mental health diagnosis (Borderline Personality Disorder) came about because I went to… Continue reading Reflecting On Rogers Memorial Hospital
Receiving a diagnosis of any kind can be devastating to a person's life. It's perfectly normal to need to grieve a diagnosis. Getting diagnosed can mean extra treatment, new medication, hospital stays, lifestyle changes, and more. It can put a strain on even the strongest of relationships. A diagnosis can also leave a lot of unknowns… Continue reading Greiving a Diagnosis